& that's the way life goes

Bottom Line:

–I hate wanting someone to call and I know they won’t.

–I hate being in limbo.  I want to be upset and move on.

–I hate letting other people control the way I feel.

–I hate obsessing and whining (I’m surprisingly good at it though)

–I hate thinking about the memories that make me feel warm and fuzzy when I’m down like this because it makes me feel worse.

It’s never quite simple, it’s never that safe
it never seems perfect until it’s too late
It’s never the right time to find a new way

There’s an answer in the sound of a train
there is wisdom past the bridge on the bay
There’s a lifetime through the fog, in the rain
there’s a beauty in walking away

~Marie Digby, Beauty in walking away

Lyrics that I’m really feeling…

And I said this world, this world
Could leave us anyday
But my love for you, it will never go away.
And I don’t wanna go to sleep
Cuz’ you are like a dream
For every night I see you there,
And I swear you are the answer..

I don’t need three wishes
Oh I just need one
For us to never be finished
For us to never be numb
When they say it’s over
We’ll just say I love you..

~Leona Lewis, Angel

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We had fire in our eyes
In the beginning I
Never felt so alive
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It’s not fair when you say that I didn’t try
I just don’t want to hear it anymore…

We had time on our side
In the beginning we
We had nothing to hide
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It’s not fair when you say that I didn’t try
I just don’t want to hear it anymore

~Three Days Grace, Let it die

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And that road became familiar
Like the mystery shape of your heart

And I know you love me in your way
I’m looking forward to looking back on these days
And I’m fine, But I’m not ok
I’m looking forward to looking back on these days

~Mandy Moore, Looking forward

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So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it’s not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it’s not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal

~Three Days Grace, Animal I’ve Become

Kind of a mix, but eh, I’m kind of complex.

Sometimes I care too much, think too much, love too much.

I have 2 songs that I’m enjoying, the lyrics are pop-y and get stuck easily in my head.  But I’m enjoying them right now so don’t hate

Hey hey, you you
I know that you like me
No way, no way
You know it’s not a secret
Hey hey, you you
I want to be your girlfriend

You’re so fine
I want you mine
You’re so delicious
I think about you all the time
You’re so addictive
Don’t you know
What I can do
To make you feel alright
( alright alright alright)

Don’t pretend
I think you know
I’m damn precious
And hell yeah
I’m the mother fucking princess
I can tell you like me too
And you know I’m right

~Girlfriend, Avril Lavigne

You can watch the video here, http://youtube.com/watch?v=cQ25-glGRzI

Do what you want, but you’re never gonna break me.
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.
No.

Take me away: A secret place.
A sweet escape: Take me away.

Take me away to better days.
Take me away: A higher place.

~Pocket full of sunshine, Natasha Beddingfield

You can hear it here, http://youtube.com/watch?v=xEkEhDm2les

“Some believe in destiny, and some believe in fate
I believe that happiness is something we create
You best belive that I’m not gonna wait
‘Cause there’s gotta be something more”

~Sugarland, Something More

Things that make me happy:

• sunshine
• puppies
• random acts of kindness
• laughing so hard you cry
• songs that bring back good memories
• best friends
• dancing
• writing
• reminiscing about fun times
• finding money in your pocket
• taking pictures
• vacations
• making new friends
• listening to water lap the shore
• rainy days with no where to go and a good movie/book
• reading
• tennis when my forehand and backhand make my opponent want to cry
• scoring a point when sparring with my dad
• hugs
• thoughtfulness
• dressing up and feeling pretty

…to be continued

“Latest Mistake” Mandy Moore

There is part of me that wants an answer
And part of me that doesn’t want to know
Part of you that I am in love with
And the part that I am willing to let go

This is a delicate unraveling
Now and then I find pieces on the floor
Tiny little bits that tell me
Maybe I shouldn’t do this
Or love you anymore

Someone’s gonna have to fess up
Someone’s gonna have to clean this mess up

[CHORUS]
‘Cause I wanted you the first time
And I loved you from the second
And I don’t know how that ever goes away
As far as I can tell
You’re really good at talking
So I think its time you let me know

I’m just your latest mistake

I wonder what will make you happy
I wonder what you’ll do with it all
I have a map in my head
Somehow still don’t understand
Why I always have to miss you
Why I have to make the call

Someone’s gonna have to step up
Someone’s gonna have to clean this mess up

[CHORUS]

Before you drive me away
Take a good look at me, baby
Picture me not lying on your couch
Well, I wish the best for you
Everytime you go thru this
Before you finally figure it out

[CHORUS]