One of the most exciting parts of testing, board breaking. I’m not going to lie, watching this is kind of a rush because sometimes I don’t believe I can actually do this shit.
Spin hook kick – 1 1in board, Side kick – 2 1in boards, Elbow Strike – 1 1in board, Axe kick – 1 1in board
Stike – 2 1in boards
While I’m waiting for the new episode of Fringe to start I thought I’d check in my little corner of the interwebz.
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…We met the petsitting company we are going to hire to watch the dogs while we are out of town. I hope the owner wasn’t offended when we asked for proof of insurance and references. She emailed them to me soon after so I guess it’s all good. Scooby immediately liked the guy and that’s a good thing because some males make him uncomfortable. He actually liked him so much he laid by the door once he left. Silly dog.
…You know what not to do? Inhale right as you are opening a burnt bag of popcorn that just came out of the microwave. No, really. Don’t do that. You will burn the inside of your nose and it will be dry and irritated for days. It’s Thursday, 4 days after the I’mAnIdiot incident and my nose is still not the same.
…I bought my first Nettipot and I didn’t drown myself. That in my book kids, is a WIN.
…As of now I know that we will attend 2 weddings, 2 retirment parties and my dad is turning 60! I need to start planning something. Ideas? Suggestions? Advice? You wan to help?!? I’m really not an event planner so I can use whatever you got.
…Pink is fucking awesome and her husband is a hottie.
…You know what I love? Weekdays that C and I take off and spend the day together doing things we don’t get to do on the weekend. Enjoying each others company.
…I am all signed up for the rest of the aerial yoga classes this session. W00T!
…C told me he’s taking me to Chicago for my birthday in June. He’s going to plan it. I will totally fall over if he plans it all by himself. You are my witnesses that he said this is what he’s going to do.
How is your week going?
I get performance anxiety BAD. (you need an example?) Like I want to throw up or curl up into the fetal position and suck my thumb. Having gone through multiple testing sessions now I’ve learned some tricks on keeping the panic under control.
Deep Breaths – Since I was last to go at everything today I spent a lot of time sitting in lotus position inhaling and exhaling deeply
Observe – While lower belts are demonstrating their poomsaes I quietly whisper each move they are making
Focus – The kids are adorable and it’s amazing how much they learn in a matter of months
Zone the Fuck Out – C told me afterward that he wasn’t sure if even he (the extrovert) would be able to stand in front of all the Masters and parents/families that make up the audience. He also said that while I was standing in front of the Masters answering questions I looked like I was zoned out or stoned on Xanax. Whatever works kids, you better believe I’m going to do it.
I did have a slight mess up on the last poomsae* they asked me to perform, but after 150 pushups, 50 situps, 50 roundhouse kicks (50 each side) on my dad’s back, 5 instances of self defense, One-Steps* and question answering I’m not going to beat myself up over it.
All that was on top of the 2 hours of warm ups and combination kicks that I had done with the class.
My blackbelt will come from Korea, embroidered with my name with one gold strip on the tip to represent 1st dan. You bet you will see a picture! When I get the pictures from KW from her Canon Rebel I’ll be putting some up. C took a few but he didn’t change the setting and they didn’t come out very well.
And this happens to be a pretty good shot of my first tattoo I got on my 25th birthday in Honolulu.
{Malia is Maria in Hawaiian}
*I realize you have no idea what some of these things are, all you need to know is that it’s work. lol
So I heard something this week that shouldn’t hurt my feelings. It was something that I partially brought on myself but other aspects were out of my hands. I know that I’ve complained about my Grams on here a few times about how I wish I just had a loving Grandma to be a part of my life. I’ve come to terms with the way things are but it doesn’t hurt any less when I get a confirmation of how I fucked up things are.
It may be cowardly of me not to want to get together to hash things out. To be adult about it and not blame her for things. She is not a mature person, I don’t think she ever was. And just because I say I don’t want to get together to yell out my frustrations doesn’t mean that there isn’t a tiny part of me that would like to.
In short, my mom’s good friend J, who had been a part of their family for years going on trips up north with them etc, wrote my Grams an email trying to get back in touch with her. Because unlike me, J wanted to get things out in the open and reunite with her friend after years of being apart. It should be said that J was pushed out my Grams’ life when she married a control freak who didn’t care for J, over 15 years ago. Now that the husband is out of the picture there shouldn’t be a problem. When I was talking to my Grams she said she wanted nothing more than to reconnect with her old friend.
BULL SHIT.
J waited for weeks for a response to the email she sent. She finally accepted defeat and sent one more email saying Goodbye. Which got a response from my Grams stating that ” she thought it would be easier for J and I if she stayed out of picture”.
WHAT THE FUCK? Clearly, it’s easier for her to not have to face either one of us. Why?!
So yeah, that hurts a little. That while I may not have done a lot to reconcile that my Mother’s Mother, she has decided what is easiest for me without even including me in the conversation.
Anybitches, did you know that the crockpot is the best invention ever? You put a bunch of stuff in it and when you get home the house smells like you have a 1950’s housewife cooking for you.
I actually thought long and hard about this, and by long and hard I mean like 5 minutes. I don’t want to be famous and I can’t really think of anyone I’d want to be for only3 minutes. Curiosity killed the cat right? So yeah my honest answer is 3 minutes as Kik’s* finance. Maybe it would cure the “what could have been” craptastic scenarios I have from time to time. 3 minutes of my alternate reality.
Lame.
And as a disclaimer to this post, when I decided to try out Wishful Wednesday, I had no idea this is what I would be typing. Sometimes the truth is completely annoying. This is also one of those posts I wonder if I should publish. Don’t be surprised if I take it down or completely change it.
{via mlive}
I’m pretty sure 3 minutes would cover holding something that might attack me and hopefully be a quick enough that I wouldn’t actually die from panic.
It took me a good two hours to come up with a substitute. FAIL.
Wishful Wednesdays brought to you by Kelsey.
*(if you want to read more on Kik , enter it in the search box)
I think it’s time I spill some stuff…and no it has nothing to do with Marine City
♥ I ate a bowl of cereal and a ginormous piece of death by chocolate cake for dinner last night.
♥ As I get older I tend to just say what I’m thinking, even if I should have thought about it first. Is this due to immaturity or maturity? I used to care so much about how people perceived me. Now I’m find that tiring. If you like me, it will be for who I am, not who I think you want me to be.
♥ I love what JenRem created
{via JenRem}
♥ I might be loving the show Life Unexpected on the CW. Is anyone else watching this? They claim it’s “Juno meets Gilmore Girls”. I used to love Roswell and Shiri Appleby plays Cate and her finance is played by Jack I mean Kerr Smith. Um and duh, I LOVED Gilmore Girls.
♥ I really need to be working right now, but the motivation hasn’t set in
♥ I’m extremely sad that I only have 2 more aerial yoga classes left because I didn’t get to sign up for the whole 8 weeks. Boo!
♥ Math and I are not friends, I need this shirt
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♥ I’m still all kinds of happy from this weekend!
Take the weight off your shoulders, lighten the load.
Leave a confession or just say it out loud and let the wind take it away.
I had a love/hate affair with this weekend. The LOVES were the best of the best and the HATES well, you know.
– The mitten blogger meet up, skillfully arranged by Sillygrrl. She planned a great night of dinner and bowling in Midtown Detroit. I haven’t been to the Majestic since I saw Treble Charger play there in 2001!
(Ginger Mandy, JenRem, Maeko, LauReality, Sillygrrl, Supergirl)
Strikes!
This is an awesome group of ladies! I’m so glad I finally got to meet all of you in person. Supergirl (along with Sillygrrl) was one of my first Michigan bloggers in my reader. It was nice to see her face 
(Missed you Mel!)
– Hanging out with Maeko before the meetup. I <3 her. She helped me with my makeup and I might have spilled some secrets on the way to the meetup. Afterwards we drove around looking for a grocery store open to buy mac and cheese. But our mac and cheese eating and glee watching plan came apart because of her sick doggie. She also let me borrow socks to wear with the cute bowling shoes they make you wear. It should be said that I was quite bratty about it, but I think I’m ok since she’s family and she can’t exactly get rid of me. Haha.
– Aerial Yoga – I got up on the high trapeze!! And I flipped upside down on the fabric. I don’t have any photographic evidence, but I think Ginger Mandy will vouch for me
– Sparring on Saturday morning. I got Master J in the head. He even stopped to give me a high five. Don’t worry, I didn’t have time to be excited about it because the next round I got a foot, firmly planted in my face.
– Going to lunch with my great Aunt who is in her late 70’s who became faint after lunch. I’m the last person you want around when you aren’t feeling well. It was also reminiscent of my mom and completely got under my skin.
– Sunday I got up feeling quite emotional because these past couple of weeks have been really wearing on me. I’ve had a lot of stuff going on. Some really great, some not so fun but things that needed to be done. I’m stressing about my black belt testing and yada, yada. Bottom line I tried to get some errands out of the way Sunday before aerial yoga. I was running late but thought I had enough time time get in and out of CVS. Um no, they’ve only been filling my birth control pills for years now. They took Sunday to mess it up and instead of spending 2 minutes in the store it was more like 15. I might have bawled my eyes out on the way to yoga.
– When I got to yoga I was split up from Sillygrrl and Ginger Mandy. Ok, totally not the day for that, I almost started crying again. Yeah, I was that girl. What a big baby. It turned out ok. I totally saw Ginger Mandy kick ass on the trapeze (you go girl!) and I heard that Sillygrrl was totally climbing the fabric to the moon. I have no doubt, she’s inspirational on the fabric.
– I got home from the grocery store to find Scooby chewed more of the couch cushion we haven’t started paying on.
– I had just made some tea, the dvd ready to play Crouching Tiger Hidden dragon, and made a comforting grilled cheese when someone knocked on my door. My friend AP stopped by with her 2 kids (ages 1 and 3) and husband. While I was happy to see them because it’s been so long, last night was not the perfect night.
How was your weekend?
If I submitted a Post Secret this would have been it
{via post secret 1/23/10}
The manuscript (which was started in 2003 lol) only has a few more chapters to be written. The ending was the easiest part.
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- – My new obsession is chocolate covered peanuts. OMG, heaven.
- – I’m so excited for tomorrow night! Hanging out with Mae being girly and silly. More than likely taking photos and getting ready for the Michigan Blogger meetup. I can’t wait to meet Jenni, Lauryn and Supergirl! (Mel we’ll have to do lunch SOON!)
- -All I’ve been thinking about this week is going back to aerial yoga. Addict?
- – I really want to take vinyasa yoga next. I also found a pole fitness class (here or here). Mandy? Sarah? Jenni? Supergirl?
- – I can’t believe in 9 days I’ll be testing for my first degree black belt. It’s ridiculously scary.
- -San Diego is all booked. The rental place we used even provides bikes and free gym access! I know that California needs rain and all that but the second week of February, do you think we can lay off the rain?
- – I really want to buy some cute clothes for San Diego but I know I don’t need them. I will overcome temptation…maybe.
- – Why the hell is this kid here all the time? This is work, not a daycare, right?
- -TGIF! Man, this week was long and I’ve been busy at work. I’m glad to see this week go.
- – This is what content feels like, though, there are moments still where I miss you so intensely tears well up in my eyes. It’s always unexpected, it’s the small things that trigger memories. I cling to the fact that it will fade in a minute. I’ll carry around the thoughts of ‘what could have been’ (insert Tiffany song) or who I thought you were/I wanted you to be but I won’t dwell on it. It’s true that we shouldn’t focus on things we can’t change.
I totally threw in an 80’s pop song, that is awesome.
Gemini: Wednesday, January 20
Your body is crying out for a hot tub of warm water. You really want to do nothing more than relax, but your mind is playing stress games on you. Put those worries aside – you can’t do anything about these problems until they get here, and most of them never arrive.
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Prompted by Sarah, I think it’s a good day to list things I’m thankful for.
I’m thankful for Taekwondo because it allows me to spend at least 3 days a week with my Dad. When we are together we may not have deep conversations but that’s not what’s important. Taekwondo also gives me strength, not only physically but mentally and emotionally too.
I’m thankful for blogging because it opened up a community that I never knew existed. It’s hard making new friends when you get to a certain age. It’s nice connect with people who share the same fears, hopes and goals. A place to find support, advice and understanding.
I’m thankful for C being flexible and going along with whatever crazy plan I have.
I’m thankful for the pups for bringing entertainment when we are enjoying quiet time at home.
I’m thankful for my job because I like it most days and it gives me a paycheck that lets me travel, own a home and pay my bills.
I’m thankful for the color turquoise and fun colored nail polish because wearing it makes me happy.
I’m thankful hydraulic jeans because they are the only brand I’ve found that fit me perfect and they are not expensive. Which C will back me up on because he’s always complaining that my jean drawer is too full to close all the way.
I’m thankful for technology because it keeps me employed and entertained.
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~ Anais Nin
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