& that's the way life goes

girl crush that is…

I know you have them. Don’t lie. I think about doing this post a lot and then it’s like ‘oh shiny’ and I get distracted.

We just joined netflix. I know. It takes us a long time to jump on the bandwagon sometimes. We never really thought about it because, really, we never watch movies. The last time we went to the movie theater it was like our third date in 2003. For reals, yo.

C falls asleep during movies too. The last one I remember renting with him is Starsky and Hutch, and yes he fell asleep. You know what he didn’t fall asleep to? The first movie we got from netflix, Memoirs of a Geisha. Yeah, totally telling the truth.

I read the book when we lived in Florida in 2005 and have been wanting to see the movie. So I made it number 1 in my queue. He actually enjoyed it. He said that he never thought of what a geisha meant. And come on there are pretty Asian women in it.

(nice transition huh?)

I think Ziyi Zhang is gorgeous. I wish I looked like her.

Jaime Ray Newman I liked her in Eastwick and what do you know she’s from Michigan?!

Dichen Lachman is freaking gorgeous, period.

Eliza Dusku her acting skills are questionable but I think she is pretty.

Jessica Alba though now that I posted her picture, which it was hard to find a decent one, maybe my crush isn’t so big…

That’s all I can think of right now.  What about you, who are your girl crushes?

(via deviant art)

I was thinking about filling out this goal worksheet.  But every time my pen pencil (because it’s erasable duh,  I change my mind frequently) touches the paper I completely blank out.

What do I want?

Sometimes I look at my life and I think, “Really, this is it?” and I’m only 27.   Am I allowed to think that already?  I mean, is that legal?

I know  I don’t want babies yet, or ever.

Oh side story.  I opened up my amazing presents on Christmas and I got Rosetta Stone the Tagalog exercises.  I’ve wanted this forever and was a totally sweet gift from C because it means he listened to me.  That he wanted to get me a thoughtful gift and not something off my mile long Christmas list.

I’m all excited thinking that I’m definitely going to learn my dad’s language (though he doesn’t speak it anymore and wants to borrow Rosetta Stone when I’m done) and I have this thought.  C and I agreed that if we ever had kids we would learn Tagalog and German (our heritages) so we can teach them.  Granted, I’m sure we wouldn’t speak it fluently but hey any level of knowledge is a good base to start from right?  I asked him if this meant he wanted babies because if he did we’d have to return it.  HE LOOKED HORRIFIED.  Clearly, he didn’t think about that when he bought it.

Back to my whining…

What I want is to have a full blown passion for something.  Yes, I love taekwondo but not enough.  I think about my love for bully breeds and remember that I have a really hard time getting to the shelter.  I’m not much of a leader, I’m not going to start something and get people to follow my lead.  And most of the time I don’t mind it.  I can be fickle and restless, it’s just part of my personality.

I want to be creative but I feel stifled and lack guidance.  I’m really big on guidance, I don’t know why.  I guess I need someone to show me a path to get me started.  It’s a given I’ll deviate from it.

I want to be better organized, but not clutter free.  Does that make sense?

So any ideas you have to help get me started in any of these things would be appreciated.   And I know you have ideas.  I read your blogs and sometimes I sit back, cross my arms and totally sick my tongue out at you.  Because it seems like you have it figured out.

For the LOVE, I can’t even decorate my house.  I did one room and it’s ok.  It’s the room that we don’t use.  OK, I’m sure you get my point.

/whining

I was watching a lifetime movie the other night and Drew Fuller was in it.  OMG I haven’t seen him since he was on Charmed and let me tell you he is easy on the eyes.

I don’t have many celebrity crushes but OH.MY.GOD. I would totally leave C in a heartbeat if I had a shot with Drew Fuller.  I’m just sayin’.

He has an uncanny resemblance to Kik (if you want to read more on Kik , enter it in the search box).  Holy shit like a lot.  Mmmmmm.

Ok, anyhow. Must change the subject before the fantasies get too x-rated

Tomorrow night is New Year’s Eve.  Part of me wants to get all dressed up and go out but the other part of me a bigger portion doesn’t care if I sit at home.   I don’t know NYE has never been a big holiday for me.  I honestly can’t remember doing anything special except for the Millennium.    I guess I’m just totally lame.

What are your plans?