I’m a pretty confident girl. Sure, I have my days where I feel disgusting but for the most part I don’t complain. Of course I check out other girls but I never feel a real jealousy. I think she’s pretty and move on, we all have our positive attributes.
With the exception of this one girl. I don’t even know her, she’s an ex-boyfriend’s girlfriend/fiance and every time I see her picture my confidence deflates. (Thank you Facebook!) I know how ridiculous this sounds. Believe me. She’s the kind of girl that makes me want to starve myself and eat a container of chocolate chip cookies simultaneously to make myself feel better. Since I have no willpower to give up food, I usually end up doing the latter. She’s tall (5’9) and slender, something that I will never, ever be. Clearly, by now I’m done growing topping off at 5’3 and I’m not built to be slender. I’d classify myself as athletic and not just because I play sports. She’s probably graceful and not a huge klutz like me. You get the picture…
I guess on the bright side whenever I’m feeling way too happy or good about myself , I know how to get rid of my big head.
Do you ever feel this way? Why? Who? I’m not the only one, right?
Ok, I will be honest. I don’t think it’s just her looks, I am pretty sure know there is more to my neurosis but I’m not comfortable letting all that out in a public forum.
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15 Responses to “pass the pint of ice cream”
I have some issues sometimes….Especially with women I am in general jealous of…I think that way about the girlfriend (well, now wife) of my first real love….She’s so thin, lithe, pretty….She’s the opposite of me physically in every single way. And I feel very….I don’t know. But I feel you with wanting ice cream at moments…
.-= Mel´s last blog ..i’m just wired that way =-.
rialeilani
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April 12th, 2010 at 8:22 am
@Mel, i know EXACTLY how you feel. but we’re totally awesome and shouldn’t let them make us feel bad!
Been there!
I was seeing a guy for six months last year and I’d saw loads of pictures of his ex on his FB page back when they were still dating – I just couldn’t believe he had gone from her to me, she just was so much prettier as far as I was concerned. And it didn’t help that SHE had been the one to end it either…
In my case, I think this girl was around about the same height as me (5’3″ ish too) and probably about the same shape, albeit with bigger boobs. It was more the fact she had much nicer hair, and a really pretty face and had actual ACTING TALENT (something i have always wanted) that made me sad. Oh, and she was 5 years younger than me. Boo.
.-= Paula´s last blog ..FLAT RAGE STRIKES AGAIN . . . =-.
rialeilani
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April 12th, 2010 at 8:21 am
@Paula, i bet like me you are just too hard on yourself. that girl is probably or would be just as jealous of you. isn’t it annoying we let these girls get under our skin.
i feel that way sometimes too. but remember – you can do amazing circus tricks and roundhouse kick people in the head and are super sweet and super cute!
rialeilani
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April 12th, 2010 at 8:20 am
@Sarah, aw thanks Sarah. maybe if i roundkick her in the head..haha just kidding
I think this happens to everyone. Everyone has that one person that can just drive them nuts and make them feel crappy.
My biggest pet peeve lately is some of my co-workers. They are wonderful, charming and beautiful but obsessed with calories and the gym. Being the biggest of all of them and being pretty ok with that makes their ranting and raving about calorie counts really irritating and sort of depressing.
rialeilani
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April 12th, 2010 at 8:19 am
@Claire Suzanne, calorie counters are so obnoxious. it’s one thing to do it, it’s another to talk about it nonstop!
I feel this way rather often… especially around beautiful and talented people like yourself. Don’t let this chick make you feel any less of yourself – that’s a waste of time! Not only are you beautiful, but you’re smart, healthy, athletic (uh, you broke lots of boards with your hands!), a great friend, a pretty groovy daughter, a wonderful mother (to your pups) and a fabulous wife. We all get insecure sometimes but just remember that everyone gets jealous here and there… even her! Plus well you are better. And I can say that with full confidence
<3
.-= Jenni´s last blog ..Today marks the day… =-.
rialeilani
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April 12th, 2010 at 8:18 am
@Jenni, psshhhh you are the one that’s beautiful and talented. it is a waste of time to feel like crap about it. it annoys me that i let it get to me, for sure. thanks lady! <3
You not slender?! You’re crazy.
.-= A Super Girl´s last blog ..Not here, but over there =-.
I feel like the queen of comparing myself to other girls sometimes. Hence some major issues in college where I felt totally ugly and fat a majority of the time. ick.
um. but you’re awesome. please shut up
xoxo
rialeilani
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April 12th, 2010 at 8:17 am
@Amy, lol thanks. and you are gorgeous! i’ll make you a deal will both stop comparing ourselves!
I think we’re all guilty of that now and then. I’ve been feeling it lately towards someone who I normally love and am close too. For whatever readon lately she makes me feel jealous and insecure and incapable and I hate it. Our emotions can be a very ugly thing sometimes.
.-= lauryn´s last blog ..How to write a Nicholas Sparks movie. =-.
You’re totally not the only one who feels this way. I often feel jealous of most other women, and I take it out on Ice Cream and cookies.
It’s not that THEY makes us feel bad about ourselves, it’s that we feel inferior in their presence. It’s not them, it’s us. And when we get over it, it’ll make stuff easier for us to live with.
.-= Maeko´s last blog ..Things That Bring Smiles #2: Old and New Friends, Art, Fashion Giveaways =-.