Maybe it’s just the mood I’m in. Or maybe I’m realizing that something needs to change. Like a lot of people, I have a college degree. I have a gigantic student loan that I will have until I’m dead (I’ve accepted this).
I’ll admit I’m not highly motivated. I want a job that will pay the bills and that doesn’t drive me insane. But I do not want to answer phones the rest of my “career”. I’m restless. I mean don’t get me wrong there are many things about my job that I love but the parts I don’t love so much are really getting on my nerves.
I guess this stems from people leaving my office and watching other people move in.
As of this moment (which means that in like 10 minutes I’ll likely change my mind) here are what I think my options are:
- Not come home from up north this weekend. Kidding, kind of
- Find another degree program
Option 1:
There is part of me that wants to drop everything here in the next couple years and just find a small town and try to settle in. Sure I wouldn’t make a lot of money but things are cheaper up there and the scenery is pretty. Maybe I’d find more time for myself. Taking long walks in the woods with the dogs, scrapbooking, photography, writing and maybe something new.
Option 2:
I’ve been looking into Graphic Design and Computer Science. Graphic Design seems to artsy/creative for me and Computer Science seems to technical and MATH.
Side note: Math. I don’t know if I actually hate math as much as I think I do. I did pretty well in Algebra in high school and it’s always nice to have an exact answer. I also passed the math equivalency to graduate college so I mean at least I know I can do it. I do know that I HATED, LOATHED, WANTED TO MURDER Geometry. So maybe my hatred of math is a preconceived notion that isn’t exactly true. I’m thinking about taking Algebra at the community college and see how that goes.
I kind of need to make up my mind about school though, it is almost August. Actually the beginning Computer Science Classes are almost full at my Alma Mater. FUCK.
Something has to change. I’m kind of just lingering right now. If I could create my own position at the job I have now I’d do everything happily except:
- answer the stupid fucking phones
- schedule dumbass meetings
- order the office supplies
- reconcile purchase statements
- attend useless financial meetings
Oh and also I want an office where I can close the door and hibernate without being interrupted.
Obviously this is too much to ask for.
In more happy news, I picked up my new glasses last night. I think I like them. A Lot.
I had the dream last night. It varies in the storyline but the same people are always present and one of two things always happens. I have it quite frequently but it’s been at least a month since I’ve had it last. I woke up agitated and restless like I usually do. I wonder if it will ever stop?
9 Responses to “whatcha gonna do with the rest of your life?”
first off- love the glasses!!! so cute!!!
and graphic design sounds awesome! and since you work at a university, I’m sure you get free or near free tuition right? take advantage of it! even if it’s just a class or two.
I totally feel the same as you- def restless with the current job, it’s not all bad, but there’s certainly parts that SUCK. (ahem- try counseling on the PHONE. wtf…). hang in there. you might find you’ll really like the graphic design or even computer science
otherwise- you know… screw society, get a cabin and live off the land or something.
lol
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Honey, it wont’ stop until you start doing something about it. That’s what i learned the hard way. When I felt restless, it turned into resentfulness and eventually I became depressed. I had to do something. I’m doing it now! I’m so happy that i’ve decided to get out and do something.
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Oh, I hear you on the Change Train.
I’m in need of one myself.
I would also like to stop ordering office supplies, have to answer the phone and would LOVE to eliminate stupid people and/or fixing other people’s mistakes. Good luck with the career path decision =)
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oh i think we are all feeling the need to change, it’s been coming over me every day lately. i can’t help it, but i don’t know what that change is going to be.
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“I want an office where I can close the door and hibernate without being interrupted”- LOL! Your new glasses are so cute!
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I adore the idea of moving up North and settling into a quiet little town. Even if it was only for a few years, it would be so peaceful and beautiful. You wouldn’t make a ton of money, but I bet you’d gain a lot of other important things in life.
And the glasses are very cute!
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LOVE the glasses!
I so hear you about the limbo thing… at least you’ve sort of decided what your options are. That’s farther than I’ve gotten!
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girl, there is still so much ahead for u. start it right now and u will see. live life to the full enwe.
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I hear this and I am the same way… I know I want to do something, but the problem is that I’m not motivated enough to make it happen. I know I will get there eventually, but I need to kick myself out of a laziness rut. And I need to learn that I am capable of anything because I’m smart enough to be… just need to stop being lazy.
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