& that's the way life goes

Sometimes my memories come at me hard and fast and out of the blue. Distracting me so much I just want to claw my brain out (was that too graphic?). I’ve learned that the only way to make them subside and fade into the background is to get the emotions out on paper.

Memories are fascinating. The feelings they can provoke, it’s as if you are reliving them.

I can see the faces, remember the rush of blood through my veins, the sharp intake of my breath and the thought that I needed to focus so I could remember every little detail. I knew in that moment I would fail because I was so swept away. But what I do remember is vivid and engaging.

So this is me just thinking out loud.  It won’t win any prizes but it will help with the sanity I’d like to keep.  You know you can’t have “the crazy” making public appearances.

Slightly buzzed

Silence broken

Soft whispers

Talking

Talking

Talking

Adjust position

Adoringly stare

Apprehended breath

Listening

Listening

Listening

Describe this

Defend feelings

Dance together

Let go

Let go

Let go

And one more…

He rolls over

Gazes at me

My breath stops

We are talking

Quietly

Quickly

He leans closer

Whispers in my ear

‘No words describe this

I’ve made one up

To describe

The indescribable’

His word comes out

A murmur

Syllables encased

In a sigh

I grasp it

Never letting go

The softness

Wraps around me

Keeps me warm

Bombards me

Out of nowhere

He’s gone

I’m alone

With the made up