& that's the way life goes

I was unpacking some more stuff for my office today.  I ran across some more unflattering pictures of myself that I thought about burning.  However, I did not.  I moved on and found little things that the bestie had made for me over the years, cards, pictures with our sayings and memories on them and last but not least something that made ever little effort I’ve made to let the past go come back and bite me in the ass.

Sometimes when life gets me down I focus on the happiest time of my life.  It helps me get through the day.  Well I’ve been thinking about this one particular time a lot lately.  I’m thinking that I should probably stop looking back so much and look forward a little bit more.

I read awhile ago that when you are obsessing over something, to diet from whatever it is.  Every time it crosses your mind you purposely think of something else.   I don’t remember all of the article just that they suggested thinking about auditioning for American Idol.  I don’t know why that one sticks in my head but it does.  So I’ve been trying out for American Idol a lot lately in my head.

Today in box buried under some old McDonald collectible toys (yes I still have a few from the lion king), a green plastic dinosaur from a Chicago museum and a painted rock I used to have under my pillow I found a tape.  I thought the tape had mysteriously disappeared years ago since I had looked for it, knowing it did exist.  But I had moved from Michigan to Florida and back to Michigan so I had lost hope.

That little bastard tape.  I can’t wait to get it on my laptop to send to the bestie.  She is going to laugh her ass off.

My feet are officially frozen.

Ok that’s not really news.

Just so you know I bought hosting yesterday!  SQUEEEEEE!  I’m trying to install wordpress so this blog might be down sometime between today and tomorrow while I figure it out.

I hope you all have a fabulous Friday!

Hiya!

I need some help.  I want to make sure that everyone that reads and/or comments on this blog gets some love.  Can you check out my blogs I voyeur and make sure you are listed.  If not, leave me a comment so I can add you.  And if you read and don’t want to be added, that’s cool too!

Yeah, I’m totally making you do my work, what can I say

OMG…ok so I talked to a friend today and they told me this story that totally scarred me for life with mental images.  Actually truth be told there were 2 stories in that conversation that left me with uncomfortable mental images.   I need a freakin’ scrub brush for my brain.  STAT!

UGH!

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On another note I have a question for you.  I have something that I really want to talk to someone about, but it’s one of those topics that (a) the people I would talk to about it are all listened out and (b) it’s something that only a few people know about.  I’ve tried writing it out myself but it’s like I need some type of feedback.  I need someone who would withhold judgment and just nod once in awhile.  I”m tired of burdening the friends that are all listened out.  *sigh

Have you ever been in this position?  What did/would you do?

I’ve been sitting on this for awhile.  I wasn’t sure how to approach it.  I guess I’m being modest and I just don’t want to be all “hey look at me!”.    A couple weeks ago I was going through my reader, reading all your awesome blogs when I came across a post by Kat aka Tough Girl titled what my favorite blogger taught me.  It’s a post about me!

Thanks Kat!  It’s always a great feeling to feel like you  connect with someone, whether or not you’ve met them in person.  She has been a great source of information and knowledge when it comes to paid advertising and blogging in addition to just being someone awesome to talk to.

We are thinking about starting a joint blog.  I’m pretty excited, I think it will be fun and good practice to collaborate

Sometimes my memories come at me hard and fast and out of the blue. Distracting me so much I just want to claw my brain out (was that too graphic?). I’ve learned that the only way to make them subside and fade into the background is to get the emotions out on paper.

Memories are fascinating. The feelings they can provoke, it’s as if you are reliving them.

I can see the faces, remember the rush of blood through my veins, the sharp intake of my breath and the thought that I needed to focus so I could remember every little detail. I knew in that moment I would fail because I was so swept away. But what I do remember is vivid and engaging.

So this is me just thinking out loud.  It won’t win any prizes but it will help with the sanity I’d like to keep.  You know you can’t have “the crazy” making public appearances.

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We had my friends and their significant others over Saturday night.  Well technically they are more like my sisters.  I’ve known them since I was 3.

It was in my living room that night, while the guys were downstairs, that I realized just how far we’ve come.  How much we have grown.  And how much I love them.

A P has 2 children now.  The littlest  just a little over 3 months old.  Precious.

A P and baby A

M was such a big help to C.  Always ready with some kindling wood for the fire.

I believe C might be her boy

holy crap!

I haven’t been to the movies in years I think.  I guess it’s sad but I don’t really watch movies.  Sure there are movies I want to see but then you know the saying “out of sight, out of mind”.  But I finally broke the movie draught on Friday.  L Pizza and I went and saw Bride Wars (which by the way was funny and cute).

The movie isn’t waht I wan to talk about though.  It’s the prices and holy shit the drinks.

I don’t know if this picture does the drinks justice.  One alone weighed as much as small dog (think tea cup chihuahua).  I couldn’t fit my hand around it, I was scared I was going to drop and spill it all over the floor.  The size of the drinks had me laughing hysterically all the way to  theater 3.  Not to mention that L P and I were thinking ok “2 medium drinks and a large popcorn should be about $13″ um no, the total was $17something.  $17?!  For a pop that I’m not even going to drink 1/4 of and popcorn we at maybe half of?!  Seriously, if you drank even half of that you might as well just stay in the restroom and enjoy the view of the stall door.

And get this, if we would have each gotten a small popcorn and a small pop it would have been $20!  Obviously this movie thing is a treat and Iwill be smuggling in my own water and box of candy next time.  The tickets alone were $9.50 (ha I got a student discount though!)  I remember it being $8.50 the last time I went.

Apparently you have to break into the savings account before a movie outing.  So tell me, do you go to the movies or wait until it comes out on dvd and watch it at home?  With our new tv and comfy couch I have no problem waiting for it to come out on dvd.

I’ve been toying  with the idea of creating an additional blog for awhile that is a little less personal than this blog.  For purposes of showcasing my more “professional” side (whatever the hell that is).  I think when I say professional side it would be something that I wouldn’t mind sharing with an employer.  I probably won’t fucking swear as much but I will try to still be the witty girl, I think I am.

I graduated with a journalism degree so I think I’m going to start researching some topics and writing editorials.  My goal is to just gain more knowledge and keep learning.  Because really if we aren’t constantly learning what the hell are we doing?  I’m sure that I won’t post as much there as I do here, but if you’d like to check out my other blog email me and I’ll give you the address.  Some of the topics I’m thinking of touching on are:

• technology
• animal behavior
• dog training
• current news

Hey and if that doesn’t interest you, I hope you’ll still keep reading here