I’ve been really sensitive about things lately. I think its because the anger and resentment I’ve been holding onto has evaporated and I’m left feeling exposed. It doesn’t help that the only constant that I had is now filled with stress and tension. I don’t know how you guys feel about your jobs but I actually have some love for mine. I enjoy most of the work I do and I get to learn on a daily basis, with awesome co-workers (with a couple exceptions) that help me along the way. It satisfies my need to excel and also my curiosity. I really feel like I can learn things without having to know everything. I’m a true gemini with an attention span no bigger than a fly so getting to work on different things is important.
We’ve had some major changes in the office, and while we welcome some of them others are not so great. I don’t know the details of what is going on in one of the departments (and when I say departments I don’t mean mass amounts of people. Our whole office consists of 9 people and they make up 3 departments) but you can feel the underlying tension. I’ve heard some heated meetings too, which make my stomach turn (I’m highly non confrontational). For the most part, before July, we were a pretty solid team. Now it feels like we are slowly falling apart. I have faith that this will work itself out, but my hyper sensitivity is not making me feel any better.
Lately I’ve also been longing for an intense conversation. Something deep and profound. Unfortunately, those discussions are rarely planned and C pretty much hates talking, at least about anything that involves emotions or deep thoughts. Though you can find him with his phone glued to his face talking about hockey or the work he needs to do at his dad’s house. We also have a tendency to argue even if we are on the same side. It’s a bit ridiculous. *sigh, I guess I just felt like complaining, and for those of you that made it through this post I commend you.
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Am I too late to join the party? I know it’s already in progress but I have super bad PMS and feel I could lend a great deal of “pity” to your par-tay
I’m sorry you are feeling so lost. I feel sorta the same way. I feel lonely and anxious. I’m feeling for you Ria!
I hope you manage to shake it off a bit and enjoy the weekend, Monday comes so damn fast… so try your best to carve out some time for yourself to enjoy! I will try to do the same
Love,
Anne
i havent receive my invitation! here’s my hug for you ria, i dont knownwhat to say to make you feel better, but you are not alone.. we are here, let it out.. we are listening… i mean reading..
remember: this too shall pass..
I made it thru the post! And sometimes it’s good just to kinda get it all out there and complain. We all do it. In fact- I’ve had my fair share of rant posts
Oh count me in on this party. Yesterday I went into the sparen bedroom (aka craft room and office) , put some music on and had me a good ugly cry. J and I really struggle to communicate these days and I finally just said; “I don’t really need you to understand why I feel like I do, but I’m telling you that I am sad and stressed and I just need someone to BE there right now.” And I was surprised to see that it worked. He immediately cooled down and gave me a hug instead.
But still, it’s draining. {{hugs}} to you, and I am sending you positive thoughts Ria! I hate when you’re sad.
well shit. *sigh* now what is going on with work?
sorry everything is falling apart.