Good friends are like stars…You don’t always see them, but you always know they’re there
(I’m not sure where that came from so if you know please tell me)
I am a lucky girl. I have a handful of the best friends anyone could ask for. It’s been a rough month, and I have a feeling that it’s going to get even rockier. I have been feeling vulnerable, anxious and insecure in the past weeks. The only thing I have right now are my friends to lean on and you know what, their support is astonishing. I honestly don’t think I would have been able to drag myself out of bed if it wasn’t for them. They listen to me ramble and I’ve opened myself up to a few of them like I’ve never done before, not even when my mom died. I’ve shared my crazy and let my guard down in ways I never thought I’d be able to. I’ve confessed things that have been hiding deep down that I was sure I would take to the grave. Part of me is still reeling from this weekend. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t second guessing my decision, but this is mostly because I’m not used to letting my thoughts and emotions tumble out like water breaking through a dam.
In many ways I’m very open and I share thoughts and opinions, but I’m also very secretive. My journal was the only thing that saw everything inside me. I feel a little “naked” right now, like everything is exposed. I’m still in limbo and the anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach is sickening. But I found new strength, strength that I’ve absorbed from my friends. It’s a gift that I will never be able to repay, but I hope if the day ever comes when they need strength and hope, I pray I can give them even half of what they give me.
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The thing that we forget is that everyone has secrects, even best friends. So when you bare your soul they most likely relate because they may have gone through the same feelings.
I’m one. So when you need a chat you have my email!
It’s a great thing to have friends you can lean on, friends that don’t judge.
I’m also sorry that you’re feeling so vulnerable right now, but I’m sure that your friends love you so you don’t have to be afraid to get hurt by laying it all in the open.
it is always scary when you talk about your deepest thoughts and feelings…even when it is best friends. i’ve felt that naked feeling you are talking about. but it is always followed by relief and love and a realization no one is going to ran away and call me crazy. because they love me. and that is what friends are for.
That’s really sweet. You are lucky to have such good friends, but you must also be awesome or else they wouldn’t be stickn’ to you like glue!