So I’m in a slump, but I’ll leave you with some profound sayings I hold close to my heart. Mostly because the person who shared them with me is as special as they come.
“I don’t want you to change, I want you to learn”
“Take a quote you like, like the ones on the bottom of your emails, and change it around to fit you”
“If we thought about everything we said before we said it, after awhile it would be habit and we wouldn’t say things we didn’t mean”
the universe would have no other way…
got an email from my realtor. the bank is trying to keep the deposit money from the house that fell through. their excuse? the denial letter took too long?! WTF? Seriously?
No idea what to do now…the decision isn’t final yet but i’m worried.
I got nothing good to write about. Life is overwhelming with good and bad, but I’m taking a break from reality and “running away” with a friend for an overnight trip. My hopes are that it will be smoke filled. I’ll leave that open to interpretation.
Have a great weekend!
…for the day
oops meant to post this last night, i hate when i do that
I saw this over at Little Miss Firefly and thought it was interesting. It would be fun to be a fairy for a day and get to flutter around. Also would love to live in quiet meadows 
What’s your fairy name?
Dear My Newest Superior,
I have a meeting with you at 3pm this afternoon to discuss my role in this office. Let’s just make sure we are on the same page. I was hired as an Administrative Assistant, but those duties take up less than 10% of my time. Here is what you should expect from me:
I’m sure there is more but you have a lot on your plate right now since you moved here from a different state. I hope you enjoy our office personality.
Sincerely,
Ria
today is one of those days where i come crashing back to reality. we totally let the house go, which i know is the right thing. i can’t buy a house feeling like this. poor realtor. but i can’t think about anyone else right now.
today is one of those days where the tears are just beneath the surface waiting to spill over.
today is one of those days where i feel lost from the person i was a couple months ago. i don’t think i’d recognize her if i saw her.
today is one of those days where i just want to get in my car and drive. any where away from here.
today is one of those days where the sympathetic stares make me want to break down and talk to anyone who will listen. but i won’t.
today is one of those days where all i feel is insecurity.
today is one of those days where i can’t even think about tomorrow because this day is going to be never ending.
today is one of those days where i have to think back and remember that i am stronger than i feel.
If I had a dime for every…time I said ‘what’s up munchkin’
If I could catch a star I’d… I’d give it to someone special
If you saw me cry you’d… wonder how so many tears can fall at once
If you could read my eyes they’d tell you… everything is not ok
If I could go back 5 years I would… know a lot more
If you saw me walking…you’d have to hurry to catch up
If I could fly, I’d fly to… anywhere to get away
If I had a black cat sitting in front of me, I’d… stroke it’s ears
If I could live in the Big Apple I’d… I’d probably freak out because of all the people
If I had to leave my soulmate I’d… wonder if they were really my soulmate
If I could be a movie star I’d be… donate money to causes I deemed worthy
If I did a trick it would be… disappearing
If I had half a million I’d…pay off some bills and take my wonderful friends out
If I could pick only 6 things in the house to have for 1 year, it would be… computer, cell phone, clothes, toothbrush, fridge, books
If I really could have a dream come true it would be… happiness
If the drinking age was lowered… it wouldn’t affect me directly
If aliens really do exist…I’d like to stay oblivious
If school wasn’t required… that would be scary
If I had a special power…I could teleport
If I am what I eat… I am bread and cheese
If I am rubber and you are glue… Whatever you say bounces off of me, and sticks to you.
If I ruled the world… I’d need a more extroverted personality
If dogs are a man’s best friend…I’d hope everyone had one
If time heals all wounds… Than I shall keep on waiting. . .(I agree with Dana)
If I won the lottery… I’d volunteer or work part time, buy my dad a school for his Tae Kwon Do and other cool things
If actions speak louder than words… I’ll try to do more
If I died today…it was my time to go
After I shut down the computer last night and sat on the couch Scooby crawled up next to me. He knocked over the card table that was leaning against the couch and scared the shit out of himself, which caused him to fling himself at me simultaneously punching and clawing me in the face.
It looks lovely…really…
fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, I’m out.
yep pretty much summarizes the day. with the exception of taking the time to watch the clouds from the back of my car it sucked.
"We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospection."
~ Anais Nin
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