30
Apr

I have always been a writer. When I was little I knew I couldn’t draw and that thing I drew to illustrate my story wasn’t a dog, at least not to anyone’s eyes. But the description made the dog come to life. Granted I was probably six so it consisted of soft black fur with brown eyes and red collar but you get my drift. I relied on words to get my point across. And not spoken words, I was a shy and quiet child so I needed an outlet.

I had a diary when I was six, it was white plastic with crayons decorating the cover and it even had a tiny lock. I kept it hidden underneath my bed, with the key stored somewhere else (that’s another thing I was a private kid too). One day my dad decided to cut the tree down outside my window. I cried and got out my diary. I wrote a whole page about how I was sad for the tree and that it didn’t have the chance to grow up and be a big tree like the other one in our front yard. I don’t think my parents ever knew about that little episode of mine. My diary was my comfort, and as I got older I’d write anywhere, diaries, notebooks, single sheets of paper, anything.

When I was in high school I wrote a lot of poems, I’m sure most of them weren’t any good but it was a way to express myself and let the emotions out that I bottled up inside. I graduated with a degree in Journalism and I’m kind of sad I don’t use it on a daily basis.

Why am I telling you all of this? Well short story long, for the month of May I will be posting a writing exercise. I’m using the book The Write Brain Workbook by Bonnie Neubauer.

After having my little crisis today I decided to at least try to sharpen my writing skills. I bought this book a couple years ago and I used it a little, now it’s time to really get into it.

30
Apr

I’m having a crisis today…a minor sort of panic attack. I’m 25 and what if something happens to the job I’m at, what would I do?

(my throat constricts at the thought and my breathing becomes slightly labored) Read the rest of this entry »

29
Apr

I walked in the house today and it felt kind of like a sauna.

why you ask?

No it’s not because of the weather here, it’s actually quite fallish today.

Then what, you ask?

Oh, that’s right the hot water tank decided that it doesn’t know how to turn off anymore and the water is just boiling over.  you know creating a sauna like feel and flooding the basement floor…

(ria has left the computer room and is currently pulling out strands of hair while laughing uncontrollably, followed by collapsing on the floor to rock back and forth)

29
Apr

When I was little every time I would scratch my hand my Grandma would tell me that I was either going to get money or have to give it away. But to my dismay she could never remember which palm meant money. Today my left palm started itching like crazy so I thought I’d finally put this wonder to rest. After Googling it (I love Love LOVE Google), I found the answer. Well at least an answer, I don’t know how to prove it’s THE answer.

Left=Bad you are going to give money away

Right=Good you will get money but don’t scratch!

I’m sure you will all rest easy knowing this. ;)

28
Apr

What do you think about when I say “Our Song”?

Spouses/Partners probably. Right?

I have lots of Our Songs. I’m cool like that. Most are not because of the lyrics but because of the situations in which we experienced them (though there are exceptions).

Here are some (I’ll limit it to 2 a person because that sounds good to me I don’t have to think too hard):

C♥:

  • The Joker – Stever Miller Band
  • Let’s Stay Together – Al Green
  • Amber – 311
  • Remember When – Alan Jackson
  • Graduate – Third Eye Blind

Ok so I know that was more than 2 but I’m married to him!

Irish Cailin:

  • Count on me – Whitney Houston
  • Time after time – Cyndi Lauper
  • Back that azz up – Juvenile
  • Country Grammer – Nelly
  • Mirror Mirror – M2M

So I could probably list at least 50 so moving on…

LW & AG:

  • Quit Playing Games with My Heart – BSB
  • I can love you like that – All 4 One

T MF E:

  • Higher – Creed
  • Kryptonite – 3 Doors Down
  • The Next Episode – Dr Dre & Snoop

MC:

  • The f*cking Titanic song

Ming CC:

  • Cowboy take me away – Dixie Chicks
  • How do I get there – Deanna Carter

Gumby:

  • All Cried Out – Allure
  • Cupid – 112

What are some of your “Our Songs”?

28
Apr


april challenge badge

Originally uploaded by rialeilani polynesian princess

Dear Irish Cailin & Sleep Jane,

It’s official the April Photo Challenge is over! Congratulations for posting a picture every day!

~Ria

PS: Don’t forget to take you badge! :)

27
Apr


CIMG3014

Originally uploaded by rialeilani polynesian princess

Today is the day of the end. The end of the color photo challenge.

These are red flowers, duh, but where did I find these flowers you ask? Planted around the tree of our dream house that we have an offer in on. Please, please, please think well wishes and send me lots of luck! We stopped by today to look around the HUGE backyard and pretend it was ours and while we were there a family stopped by to do the same thing! I wanted to spit on the house and claim it as mine. I controlled myself, but I felt my mouth filling with spit…(too much of a visual?).

Our private inspection is tomorrow and hopefully the city one later this week. I’m a nervouswreck. I might see C♥ cry if we lose this house…

26
Apr



still dopey

Originally uploaded by rialeilani polynesian princess

Liko got his teeth cleaned this morning. It was expensive but worth it. Poor dog had the worst breath ever and it’s bad for their health since the tartar is bacteria. We picked him up 7.5 hours ago and he’s still a little dopey. He hasn’t really left my side, he’s been curled up next to me in his new dog bed (read his present cuz we felt guilty about making him look like that.)

26
Apr

Tomorrow is the last day of this months photo challenge.  Yea!

Here is a red household item…it’s not exciting so there isn’t much to say lol

26
Apr

Have you ever had a moment where you realized just how far you’ve come?

I’m sitting here working on my homework on a beautiful Saturday, interrupted periodically by AIM to reminisce about the good memories of the past. It’s a nice relaxing pace. It made me think about this tape I really want to find. I search through a drawer in my computer room to see if I can find it. I’m rummaging around and my hand grasps a tranquil looking journal. At first my mind wonders what this is, and then I remember buying it. I open it to find just a few entries and then pages ripped out. In the back I find an email to myself. I read through the entries and my heart aches for the girl I was. For the confusion, pain and misery I had felt. Setting the journal back down, I sit back to reflect. 5 years later the wounds have healed but my stomach clenches as I remember.

“I feel like I’m deceiving everyone around me and losing my grip on reality. I hate keeing things from people but it seems that’s the only way I’m going to figure anything out. … May God be looking down on me in my confusion, frustration and misery and maybe take pity on me. “

I know I’m not that person any more. I know that the amount of strength people have inside them is infinite. You never really know how strong you are until you are tested.