29-02-2008 by rialeilani
The conversion to Microsoft Office 2007 was creating havoc in the department’s that my office is responsible for. People were calling, in a panic, because things looked so different. Ok I will give that to you, it’s a little scary, it’s something different but in the end it is still is able to do the same functions as before. My boss researched and pulled together all different kinds of materials for people to read, watch, or print out to help them cope with all these shiny new things they were fearing. We added a special page for all these materials on our website and he was composing an email to give out the link. I was at someone’s desk when he approached me to go to his office so he could read the email.
Boss: Come to my office I’ve composed an email I want to read to you.
Me: Ok (follows behind him to his office)
Boss: So this is the email I wrote for….(searching for words)
Me: This is how it works bitches
Yeah I said it, it was out of my mouth before I even thought about. I totally know some of you just winced for me thinking “Oh my god she is SO getting fired” or at least some type of reprimand. I mean come on I just told the Interim Director “This is how it works bitches”. Did I mention he’s a missionary who is leaving this summer to return abroad? You just cringed didn’t you? No worries, I won’t be collecting unemployment any time soon (fingers crossed). My boss is really pretty awesome and his reaction was great. He threw his head back and laughed.
It’s not unusual for my personal persona to cross over to my “professional” work environment, but that’s the first time it’s come out in front of my boss. I definitely won’t be making a habit of it. I will remember what my parents taught me: “Think before you speak!”
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28-02-2008 by rialeilani
I never took the time to think about what goes into buying a house. After seeing 4 today that we really didn’t care for I began to ponder what my Mom saw in the this house (right now we are renting it from my Dad who lives in another house with his current girlfriend). I wonder what the process was like for her, if she got fed up and if my Dad really adored this house as much as she did. There are definite things in this house I don’t care for but all in all it’s spacious and homey. I get distinct feelings when I walk in the front doors of some houses. I don’t think C♥ is affected by this. It’s just my intuition.
The front door of the last house my Mom ever bought. It must have given her good vibes 
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by rialeilani
My breathing becomes irregular and my heart beats rapidly in my chest. I blow out a breath of air and try to concentrate. I must be concentrating too hard because everything in my mind goes blank. I start to break out into a cold sweat, it’s harder to breathe and I’m afraid my heart is going to pound out of my chest. Too many people staring at me, watching me, expecting excellence from me. Instead I completely fail with only 3 more steps to go. This happens 5 times. Not once or even twice but 5 times. I’m mortified when I finally finish but I try not to hang my head in shame. I keep my head high and walk to the back. If I’m not feeling bad enough the f*cking asshole in class has to comment. I hold back tears, traumatized by the whole event. A half hour later I left the dojo and cried when I got home. (and an hour after that I got drunk from one margarita HAHA) So 3 months later why am I doing it again?
It’s belt testing time again at Tae Kwon Do. In front of all the parents, 2 Masters, Grandmaster, his wife (also a black belt, I’m not sure what degree) and my Master/Instructor (my dad a 4th degree black belt). I know all the blocking sets, kicks, stances, sparring, and I really do know my form. I can do it in my head and in class on cue, but when it comes to all those people staring, watching I choke. Last time one of the Master’s spoke up for me saying I was nervous (I’m always nervous) while my dad laughed. I think he laughs because I just embarrassed him and he’s not sure what else to do. He also tells me I choke all the time. He doesn’t do it to be mean, really, I think he thinks I’m like him and the harder I’m pushed the more likely I will be succeed. C♥ is like that too. But I’m too sensitive to be pushed to succeed. I need loving, gentle support to succeed not someone demanding that I do it.
I’m not outwardly competitive but I’m extremely competitive with myself in my mind. Which is why, 3 months later, I’m going to do it again. Because maybe this time it will be different. But the fear of “maybe it won’t” scares the shit out of me. Can I face the humiliation again and hold back tears? I think not. Any advice on blocking people out so I can relax enough to demonstrate my form without choking?
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27-02-2008 by rialeilani
I lost track of the days…Here is my photo of the day. The only window I can look out in my office and I have to walk around the corner. Sad.
Obviously I doctored it a little. Hehe
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by rialeilani
Sarah Silverman “I’m F*cking Matt Damon”
[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wnVJZkDuVBM&rel=1]
Jimmy Kimmel’s Response
[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sIQrBouWRiE&rel=1]
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26-02-2008 by rialeilani
Some parts of southeastern Michigan saw 7 inches of snow today. U of M is on Spring Break this week. Those lucky rat bastard kids skipped out on the storm and are sunning themselves, doing shots, and drinking way too much. Those were the carefree days aye? All that’s left on campus are the lonely students that chose to stay and those spoiled brats bikes.
I’m not jealous or anything…REALLY!
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by rialeilani
Regardless of who it is or what it’s about if you have a vision of someone in your head and you run into them and it ruins what you had previously thought, is it better to know the truth or to keep the fantasy alive ?
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by rialeilani
I was calmly sitting at my desk today when I kept smelling this B.O. scent. The phone rang and I answered it, continuing to get whiffs of this awful pukey, musty smell. I thought it was coming from my phone (which is totally disgusting) so I went to the closet and got the cleaning wipes. I wiped it down and got it smelling all fresh and lovely. A few moments later I was haunted by the stench again.
My eyes roamed the desk, what could be producing this putrid smell? And then my eyes zeroed in on a likely target. Could it be the tea bag that was given to me out of goodwill? I picked it up, held it to my nose and inhaled. Bile rose in my throat and I inwardly gagged. Yes! It was the teabag. I put it in my drawer thinking I’d steep it later, because really it can’t taste as bad as it smells, right? But the stench, oh the stench, is seeping out. Or is it just stuck in my nose? -A- thinks that I should flush it down the toilet because “that is where ass belongs”. But I’m interested to find out if it tastes bad and makes my breath smell like farts or it may actually be good (calming or a laxative?). The person who gave it to me put another ass tea bag in his steaming mug of water and he hasn’t gagged. When he opens his mouth will rotten eggs fill the air? I guess I will find out if he breathes on me later.
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25-02-2008 by rialeilani
Yay! I made it to day 4, I mean 5, of the photo challenge. Unfortunately, I’m tired which means I will let you wonder what these pics are from. I’ll write about them later )
Happy Monday!
Ok Tuesday…I’m kind of awake. That’s a lie, I don’t know if I’m ever really awake during the week. I find that on the weekends I’m much more alert.
Yesterday afternoon I was led on a tour of the basement of our building. Down there is the student computer lab. It really wasn’t exciting at all except now I know the location the facilities manager is talking about when he says the lab is flooded. It happens a lot. Which can’t be good because, um duh, it’s a lab for computers. What intrigued me were the murals of people hanging upside down. What are they doing? Are they peeking in on you from the floor above? A whole family of “peeping Tom’s”? Silent and stationary group of security guards? If you ask me I think it may border on creepy. You’ve got Grandma and Grandpa looking sideways at each other like they are up to something sneaky, and then the kids glancing at their grandparents like their freakin crazy. Grandma’s even got the blue/silver (well really purple) hair and old-time winged glasses. Or maybe Grandpa thinks Grandma is crazy too and that’s why none of them are standing next to her. Or maybe she smells musty. And the guy above the water fountain, he’s making sure you aren’t backwashing on the thingamajig that the water comes out of.
Ok enough speculation…What do you think?
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24-02-2008 by rialeilani
Really? Seriously?
The Smart Cycle Physical Learning Arcade. For ages 3-6 years old. So technically this isn’t my picture I got it from the website above. But I did see it at Walmart today and if I wasn’t so busy trying to keep C♥ in his right mind (going to Walmart is like having a panic attack for him) I would have taken the picture myself. I actually did have my camera on me.
Are kids so fat and lazy today that they can’t just go outside and ride a bike? That riding down the street getting fresh air isn’t as exciting as playing a video game? Even if it may be educational? I think more parents should get their kids to play outside instead of letting them expand on the couch.
On another note: The first thing we saw walking into Walmart was a very pregnant lady wearing a middrif exposing tiny t-shirt in the dead of winter. Ew! (if I didn’t feel like the awful paparazzi I would have tried to take a pic) And I’m not saying this because she was prego, I don’t like seeing overweight guys baring their stomachs either. Cover up!
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